Comprehension and basics

Always am I seeking to be better, aways to be the best. I betray myself if I do not seek improvement. I cannot imagine, as a teeneage, why I did not see the seriousness of focus or dedication. It is my responsibility to myself to ask how I can improve. I have only to look at my first attempts. Such static, blocky movements! But that was the devolpment of my mind at the time. I could not comprehend fitting together 2 or 3 forms of the body nor controlling the motion of seperate muscles. If I truly believe that there is no seperationbetween mind and body then I must treat each as important as the other. i must think more on this and how I can train such a tool as the brain-I mean how do I strengthen intelligence, increase the speed of synapses or sharpen the point of clarity? I think the answer lies in my ability for imagination. The ability to create out of nothing such ideas to test my perception, to test the definition of my world. Again, again I have come back to the sword, for like physically where I must eliminate such useless movements that would trip me up, mentally I must do the same.

Analytical, logical, reason, inductive, fanciful, playful, unusual, linear, random-what kind of thinking is best? I think analytical, interpretive thinking is best for predicting and judging an opponents movement. But this should only apply in preparation and training. Its hard to describe but I think duality fits the best role. Here I should be all encompassing: taking into account all factors that I can, but on the other hand it is not my focus to try and understand all these factors and then act. As I said before that is work I should do before hand. Rather the duality is that there should be no seperation in thinking between myself and those factors; swords, bodies, terrain, sound etc. Even when training it is hard to achieve this kind of mind set. But it occurs to me truthfully, what difference is there in mental activity between sword fighting and sitting or walking around the city or even at work engaged in some projects? It comes down to the balance of when and how to act.